This is the beginning of Passion Week and as I sit here on this rainy Sunday at Genesis Church iCampus, I struggle to keep my heart, mind and eyes on Jesus. Oh how I love Him and my hearts desire is to worship Him but my mind seems to be crowded with life. Life, the stresses of life, the decisions that have to be made Monday morning, the unknown of the future, the gazillion things on my to do list and on and on, so as I sit here today, I have to make a decision to lay all of it at the feet of Jesus an keep my eyes, mind and heart focused on Him. I don’t want life to drown out what God has to say to me today and my hearts desire is to praise Him unashamed as we celebrate His life, death and resurrection this week.
A couple of weeks ago, I received a facebook message from my Pastor asking me to share what I would do if I knew I had one month to live on this earth. And after the big gulp of processing that question, I quickly wrote out the things I would focus on and do during this time. One of which was to quiet out the noise of life so I could hear CLEARLY what God would have me do this last month on earth. So I then started thinking, why would I wait until then to quite the noise of life to hear from God? Why am I not quieting the noise now, and then I rationalize all of the reasons I have to go 200 miles per hour from sun up to sun down and all of the responsibilities I have and how I must fulfill everyone one of those responsibilities to the best of my ability. But as I sit here today, I long for quietness, I long to spend time with God, I long to hear from Him. Yet as Paul says, I seem to do the things I don’t want to do and don’t do the things I do want to do.
So, this week, as I enter Passion Week, I choose to quiet the noise of life and to focus on Jesus. I choose to stop focusing on the unknowns in my life, I choose to stop wallowing in guilt, insecurity, and worry, I choose to keep my eyes on Jesus despite all of the distractions. All of this is only possible through the power of the Holy Spirit who lives in me.
I still don’t know what the future holds and I still am not sure what the right decisions are for Monday morning, I still don’t know what to do on my to do list and what to re-prioritize but I do know that the Holy Spirit will lead and direct me and I don’t have to worry about tomorrow because tomorrow will take care of itself.
I don’t have all the answers and I am definitely a work in progress but I do challenge you to join me to quiet the noise from “life” and focus on hearing from God. Praise Him this week for who He is, for what He has done and for the amazing Gift He gave us through the sacrifice of Jesus Christ.
